Kaguya
It has been a while since I watched a new anime series. Without much thought, I picked Kaguya because friends had group-watched it some years ago, back when I was too caught up in work to join in.
And wow. That was cathartic.
It has been almost a decade since I first gave serious thought to the future. I spent most of those years trying to catch up to someone who I admired. I remember Ms. Sie was the only one who explicitly acknowledged how much I was trying, at the time. And eventually, I felt intense satisfaction from their recognition, even if that was all.
Fast forward: life goals were set, life goals were achieved. The dog catches its tail. But in planning the next set of goals, I find myself hesitating now. There is too much of a contradiction between my different desires.
In the past, there has always been a responsible choice. This time, lacking the aspect of need, I don't know what to want. So, how will I convince myself next?